This entry is imported from my LJ, where some significant updates have been made that I have not yet written about on this blog. It’s pretty obvious from the context what the Big Deal is though.

My excitement hasn’t really dampened today. If anything, I’m more excited because I’m thinking of all the things we can DO. I’ll have a church again, for one. My walk with God was always stronger when I went to Wilcrest. Even if they’ve changed, it’ll be a place to reconnect with my Christian roots. I also know they have a fabulous children’s program, which is majorly important.

And Mom. Spending time with Mom is so important to me right now because I just don’t know how much time we’ll have left. She’s not that young anymore. She isn’t old, not by a long shot, but 51 isn’t a teenager, either. I want this time with her while I have it.

And Gregory. I have so much I want to teach him and time I want to spend with him. I have a lot of regrets that I need to make up for. And he’s so excited about being an uncle that I want him to enjoy some time with that while Noah is still itty bitty.

And my grandparents. All of them. I talked to my grandmother today and she was practically crying tears of joy at the mere IDEA of spending time with Noah or going to his second birthday party. Or spending Thanksgiving with me for the first time in ten years.

And then there is work. I am actually excited about the prospect of working outside of the house because I know Noah will be in capable hands (Shannon is more than capable but she’s a scenic 30 minutes away in the opposite direction of any job). With both of us working and free babysitting, we would be on our feet in no time!

And the idea of living in HOUSTON, next to everything, with my cousins and friends surrounding us…I wouldn’t have to be a recluse anymore. I could go do stuff! Picnics in the park during the Spring and a multipass to the zoo and museums and Metrorail and holy crap I’m about to explode with happiness.

This might not work. This very well could not work. But I don’t care because I am enjoying the reprieve from the depression, no matter how long it lasts.