You are two months old. I want to say I can’t believe it, because I’m so used to saying it, but I really can. This past month has been full of milestones for you - cooing, smiling, “talking” and mimicking. You have incredible head control, though you always have, and your legs are so strong that I expect you to get up and start running any day now! You have amazed us with your hand-to-eye coordination, because you bring your hand up to your mouth so easily, and you can find my nipple through my clothes without any problems (granted, you can find your daddy’s too, but his aren’t quite as yummy for you, I promise).

At first, you weren’t too thrilled with diaper changes but now you just look up at me with gorgeous blue-grey eyes and grin. Sometimes it looks like you’re contemplating a game of Fireman, but I’m thankful every time you decide against it. You are a snuggle-bug who loves to sleep on my chest and by my side, and you’re usually pretty good about letting me sleep through nursings (actually, you’re pretty good about sleeping through nursings yourself).

It saddens me that you’ve been sick the last few days and it seems like you have your first cold, but you will get better. Daddy and I don’t mind holding you as much as you need, little man, until you are all better. Hopefully today’s doctor appointment will yield good news and it’s just something mild. I hate seeing you sick, and having to use the aspirator yesterday the way we did kind of shook us up.

It thrills me that you enjoy books and stimulation - you don’t really get bored easily, but you spend a lot of time concentrating on faces and objects in front of you. It seems you notice detail - you’ve certainly figured out that sticking your tongue out will make me stick mine out, and you knew within seconds that kicking the toy on your bouncy will make it start again. You’re so keen to notice when Daddy or I are in the room and you’ve learned our voices apart from everyone else.

Right now we’ve been reading Richard Scarry’s “Please and Thank You Book” and you spend the entire time cooing, smiling and talking back to the book. I do hope you’ll be a bookworm like us, my baby love.

You and your father are my life, my world, my heart. Seeing the two of you together heals me in a way that nothing in this world ever has. Thank you for being such a perfect, wonderful boy. Thank you for choosing me to be your mother.

Thank you for giving me the opportunity to love you, because I do.

I have been BUSY. It doesn’t feel like it, because I spend most of my time either with Noah or on the computer (working) but when I think about it, I really have been super busy. Joshua and I have been preparing for my mother’s visit (she is flying in on Friday along with my brother and stepfather!) as well as getting different odds and ends done around the apartment. I finally put a bunch of baby stuff up for sale, and we got some things up on eBay as well. Noah and I have a bunch of appointments scheduled for this week, and even though I am really looking forward to his two month well-baby visit, I feel kind of like a student who left her homework at home.

Joshua and I don’t entirely agree with our pediatrician on vaccines. We do want to vax, but not quite the same way she wants us to, and she has a knack for trying to guilt us into it. We’re firm on our position (or else we wouldn’t hold one) but I’m not looking forward to any possible argument. Hopefully she will understand when I tell her what I’ve researched and learned and just how we feel overall. Perhaps giving her our own, modified, vax schedule will mollify her a bit.

I do love how pro-breastfeeding she is though. She has had some excellent advice, even though it was stuff I knew from reading Kellymom, and she agrees with the AAP on the minimum of one year/delayed solids. That makes my job a little easier when the time comes to discuss extended nursing (I use the term discuss loosely) and makes me feel like I have somewhere to go to if we need help. Thankfully we haven’t run into many problems so far.

I’m hungry and a little tired, so I am going to go veg out on some online communities for a quick break while Noah sleeps. 5 AM - yeesh.

New pictures are uploaded to my “nursing” Flickr set to go with my new LJ icon. I used to go months without changing it but now I keep having new things to put up! Noah spent most of today attached to me (in fact, he just barely let me put him in his swing about 20 minutes ago so I could get a short break) and at one point, there was good enough lighting that I asked Joshua to bring me the camera. These are, quite literally, just snapshots…but I love the way they turned out.

Every day is an experience of its own. I never imagined that an infant could have such personality, but he does, he really does. One of my favorite times of each day is right after we wake up, when he’s snuggled up against me eating…and then right after that, when we’re spending some time “talking” together. He started smiling a couple of weeks ago, and he likes to talk back to me. He also loves it when I stick my tongue out at him because he’ll smile and stick his out at me (or try to, because he tends to not get it much farther than his lips).

I wish I could write more about these days but I spend so much time either working (and taking care of him) or holding him. At the same time, I rather be experiencing his life than sitting at a computer writing about it. I can do the writing later, right?

Joshua and I are getting a rhythm down, too. We’re able to clean, work, take care of Noah and play Rappelz (for the most part). We’ve also learned how to find a little bit of time in each day for us to ‘enjoy’ each other. I never knew how much I needed that part of our marriage until recently, but God knows I do.

I am trying to read my Bible again. It has been so long since I picked it up (once in the past six months or so, and that was for a funeral where it went unopened) but having Noah, I feel like I need God in my life again. The difference this time is that the feeling isn’t going away, like it usually does.

Mom is coming to visit with my stepdad and brother in exactly two weeks. I am bursting with excitement! I never knew I could be this happy and content, but with my husband and my son, how could I be anything else? Mom is just the icing on the cake.

*sighs happily*

ETA: Also posted baby smiles. =)